I want to hang out with you. For you. I’m not with you only for the date, for the make up.
I want you to sit beside me in shorts and a t-shirt, as comfortable as you can get and talk about the things you care about.
The small things in life that you’re passionate about. I want to listen to your stories and hold your hand while you tell me your nightmares. I want to be that rock.
I promise, I’ll stop myself from trying to be funny and make you laugh while you open your heart out and I’ll listen to why you feel the way you do. Once you’re done, I promise to try and make you smile. I know the laugh will be just around the corner.
Don’t get me wrong. I want to see you when you walk out of your house in high heels and a black dress and make up on too, but that’s not the only way I wish to see you. Not just for that. I shouldn’t be with you for that. It’s not fair. There’s more than that.
Over time, I’m going to make mistakes, you’re going to make them too. I’d argue with you over what you did or what I did. But with each fight, the cup of coffee that we have after will make it worth the fight. I think so.
It should be okay to cry, if I don’t do it all the time. I’ve cried while watching movies. I could talk to you during the times that I don’t feel strong, the times I could use a friend. I could rant about anything and know that I’m not being judged.
Isn’t that what it comes down to? Being yourself and knowing that you’re not judged, you’re not mocked and you can be comfortable in your skin with me.
Being comfortable in your skin is something that’s come very hard to me. I was never comfortable. I used to go out of my way to try to look cooler, taller and smarter so I can fit in the picture.
I realized the hard way that there is no picture. You don’t have to fit in. You can be who you are and it’s okay to be that way.
I guess what I’m trying to tell you is, I remember you when I listen to a love song. I think of a joke and I want to tell that to you and make you laugh. I am a poor guy at heart and I will always be happy being that way. Don’t change for me, don’t expect me to change for you. Things will work out if we find it in us to always end up with that coffee. I know it’s easier said than done, however if we end up together, I promise I’ll be present with you.
After a tiring day, I will try and muster up the attention that you deserve from me.
I’ll be taken aback when I look at your pretty face, but I’ll enjoy the moments even more when I see the real girl in you.
Also, I make some pretty good coffee.
– Something I’ve always wanted to tell you